Ever lose your soul to academia? This is my way back… It’s time to clean that desk!

So… let’s talk about it. 

I graduated from my master’s last September, and for a while, it didn’t quite feel real. Then that piece of paper arrived in the mail, and well, it’s still sitting in an envelope on my desk… mocking me.

I thought that once I finished my degree, I would have a lot of time to write. I would finish my book, publish regularly on Medium, launch Imposter’s Guide and be well on my way to earning a living wage as an artist.

I was an idiot.

Instead, what I did was rot, doubt my ability, question my writing and get a dead-end job that isn’t even in my academic field. 

I’ve spent the last few months trying to find my way back to my writing, but let’s be real… It’s hard to claw your way back from burnout, disillusionment, and a lack of confidence. 

It’s hard to quiet the inner editor, especially when you’ve just come out of a year of workshops and forums where everyone has an opinion. Then you’re out in the wild with no one to ask, no one to reassure you and no one to read your writing.

Then it hit me…

I can’t be the only one that feels this way.

I’m going to be honest. I’m tired of not writing. I want to find my way back to this hobby and, yes, make it a hobby again. I don’t want to be perfect or even good; I just want to enjoy writing again.

Writing is something that has always been a part of me. Writing was my first love, and I want to get back to her.

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So join me? Once a week for all of April, I will outline my progress in my journey to love writing again. There will be no stupid challenges, no forcing it, but instead, I’m going to take baby steps and start to really appreciate my work.

It’s time to start being an artist again. If you’ve been struggling, I’d love to encourage you to take this journey with me. It’s time that we started being ourselves again. I don’t want to rot anymore. I don’t want to waste any more time.

It’s time to celebrate life, enjoy writing and be an artist.

It’s time to become who we are.

Week One

Today, I wrote this article. That’s a great first step, but do you know what I really want to do? Clean my desk.

It’s covered in coffee mugs and coke glasses, dice, beads, wool, sweets, plates, and a fly swatter, not to mention dust.

If I’m going to enjoy writing, I should do something about my environment. So, join me in making your writing nook comfortable, dust a surface, find some fluffy cushions, clear away the clutter and light a candle. After I’m done with that, I’m going to edit this article and maybe even get some line editing on my novel done.

That’s it for step one. Make space for your writing, create a place where you want to work. If you’re feeling up to it, enjoy your hard work and create something with me. 

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You’re worth the space you take up with your writing. You are allowed to make time for your art. You are allowed to exist in this world and just write.

As always, I cannot wait to see you on the bookshelf. Tune in next week for the next part of this series.